random thoughts 9/10/11

When you’re not that in to it anymore you just can’t find the strength to argue,prove a point and work it out, you just take a deep sigh and a big back step then walk away. It’s cos you know some where deep down there, things will never work out your way. ‘Cos you know that no matter how hard you try to pick up and mend the broken pieces…the scars of an ugly past will remain and you can never look at it the same way you did before. It’s no turning back cos if you do..you’ll end up trapped in a point of no return where misery will be your best company.

Blah!

Things are always easier said than done anyway.

#eatmybrainjunk

A thing of the past: An X will always be an X

X
a thing of the past.
a love gone wrong.
a path you'd never wanna cross again.
a bad learning experience.
an X will never be a Y or a  Z.
it's a product of a messed up algebraic expression.
it's an answer gone wrong.
a mistake.

...and no i'm not bitter, i'm just confused why some exes just can't seem to go on with their lives and try to detach their selves from what might have beens and what if's. What makes them think that after several years of being MIA they have the right to re-surface in your life and act like they're still part of it. And worst, they can't afford to see you happy-they'll do something to ruin your every single happiness.

Seriously?!

Move on.
Get a Life.
Leave us Alone.

Sincerely,

Whatta Random Fun Friday ÜÜÜ

So, im bored on a friday afternoon doing my usual shenanigans...all my browser's up. Twiiter, facebook, gmail, yahoo, tumblr and blogspot on. Not minding the possibilities of developing a carpal tunnel syndrome due to excessive typing, clicking, chatting just to kill the bad mood i have and of course the on going battle with boredom that i got as a reward after my initiation at BUMVILLE.Ü I gave  a deep loud sigh and mumbled to myself,"ella, you're officialy living the life of a loser". it sounds really kadiri, i don't have a social life anymore and I desperately want it back. And as if the heavens felt the sincerity of my plea, they favored me. My gmail chat beeped...it was MARIE!!! Geeeezzz Marie, you're heaven sent.

Marie, is Al's closest girl officemate/friend/buddy (that i know and approved of Ü) She's cool, prangka and makulit. I met her over a year ago and had the chance to know her better when we lived together for more than a month. Not an inch of kaplastikan and she offers genuine friendship. I feel comfortable around her, i appreciate her friendship with AL 'coz she fills hi with no non sense pieces of advice. She knows almost every dilemma we have at home and she's AL's go-to person everytime we need help etc etc:D I can't thank her enough for that. She recently gave birth to pretty little Kei and i haven't seen her since forever so im terribly missing her. We said the usual Kamustahan's and just talked about anything that comes to mind. I told her how much i wanted to see her na 'cos the last time i went to see her, Al and i had our usual badtrippan so i ended up missing the chance to see her. Without hesitation she invited me to watch a basketball game in Letran with some officemates after work...ofcourse i was hesitant since im not really comfortable being around with some of their officemates but i said i'll ask AL first.

On the other hand,on my facebook account i was also exchanging chikkas with Ivon. Now Ivon is a new addition to my friends from AL's office. Well,she's not really from the same office but she's the girl of one of Al's office mate,Cris so technically she still is ahh basta hehehe, yun na yun. Our common ground is that our beaus are from the same office so keri na right?! 

Ivon, unlike Marie is someone i haven't even met yet. We were friends first on facebook,hehe that's what technology does yes. But i'd like to think that Ivon and i get along pretty well. She's very sweet and charming. We kind of share alot of same sentiments towards our beau's careers and sometimes about relationships too.I think we "clicked" right on. She became my constant chat mate on facebook since the last 2 months,i guess?! We had attempts to meet but it usually doesn't materialize so i kept myself contented for the cyberspace friendship for the meantime. She's super nice to the extent that i didn't have a hard time opening up to her and sharing some deep dark secrets,joke!:D

So, when i found out that Ivon's joining Marie i got all the more excited. I asked Al if we can join them but he was kind of hesitant at first since he's not that into basketball anymore. But with a little pushing and compromise here and there he gave in.Hehehe, i always win blehh:p I hurriedly got dressed and rushed to the train station hoping i can make it on time but ofcourse,as usual i was late again.All the more reasons for Al to get pissed hehehe sorry love :( I got a bit nostalgic walking towards Intramuros, it served as my 2nd home when i was in college, i always go there to hang with Me-ann. It's been a good 4 years since i set foot and walked around the walls and i felt ancient,gaadd i'm old:(

Hun & i went inside letran's gym and it was riot the instant i saw Marie,geezz how i missed her!:D I just can't stop talking, giggling and laughing with her. Ivon was kinda demure sitting beside her boyfriend when i said my warm hi's and hello's.:D To my surprise, we were watching a game of basketball of the older bunch hahaha!! I was expecting some college boys were playing but what was i thinking right?! it's a company tourney lol!:D So i cracked up even more watching "erpats" kind of guys running the court hahah!Major fun fare! I'm mababaw like that!:D

After the game we headed to get a dose of caffeine at starbucks and just laughed the night away. Ivon finally loosened up and kept laughing with me and Marie while i put AL on the hall of shame by placing him on the hot seat. I told them stories of AL's lame womanizing while Marie was on maternity leave and couldn't keep an eye on him..kapal talaga my boyfriend!Hehehe!:D It just felt great that you have people to laugh your heart out with on random nights like these. It was a pretty great experience. I wish to have more of these nights with them. I didn't expect to have as much fun as we had for people i seldom see and barely knew but this experience proved me wrong. I was beaming with good vibes around them. The positivity of these people are just contagious. A breath of fresh air indeed. I realize that Al is definitely with a good bunch of people in the office. I appreciate that Al and Cris gamely laughed and smiled with us three girls during the whole time. I'm sorry if i was too kulit guys. I hope and pray for more coffee/beer dates with you soon.

I realized that having genuine friendship doesn't necessarily mean that you have to know the person for a long time. What's important is, that other person offers genuine friendship too. With Marie and Ivon, i felt that. I saw how big their hearts are with the smiles on their face and the expressions in their eyes. it's very rare that you find people like them, and if you do, you're just as lucky as me too. Ü

Hearty conversations over pizza and pasta ♥

It's that time of the month again, and no i'm not talking about my monthly period hehehe!:) It's the one thing i look forward to each month since July-monthly dates with my girlfriends Grace&Jhe. This time we spent it at The Piazza.It's my first time there and yes once again i am late...8 minutes late to be exact as we're supposed to meet at 1:30,sorry girls:( never again!:D Al came with me and it was his first time to meet Jhe and Ivan, he had nothing but great impressions and i'm soooo happy with that!:)

 If there's something we really look forward to on our dates, apart from seeing each other(ofcourse?!) is the sharing and the never ending chikahan. Last na yung food, hndi naman kami matatakaw charot!:D I was expecting that the chikahan will get pretty serious and intense since it's Grace's turn for a privilege speech about the  controversial break up hehehe but i was wrong. It was a serious topic yes but the sharing and interaction was pretty chillax with the crazy sensible inputs from me and Jhe(kasali daw talaga ako hahaha) and the occasional  smiles/grins in agreement of the boys.

We lounged at fruit magic for a good 3 hours and i must say it was one of the best-est 3 hours spent with friends that i had as long as i can remember charots aside.We had pizza(all meat,not the typical round one, on a soft bread&tastes pretty good in all fairness),pasta(in spicy tuna and in sausage served with bread sticks), calamnsi muffin(yes they serve calamnsi muffins and it was yummy)and of course smoothies(ripe mango, strawberry banana,choco banana and merry berry.the ripe mango probably tasted real good as jhe had her second serving hehe:D)

chaos while the staff is waiting to take our orders :D

     

I don't know but spending time with these girls is just addicting hahaha!! Can't get enough of the sharing, from kaartehan to sensitive issues of the heart and even intellectual achuchuchoos hehehe:D 

On BreakUps:

No one ever wins. It's such an ugly part of the cycle of life but it's necessary-you have to go thru the ugliest break ups to be able to have the courage and the wit to start a beautiful beginning. You have to go thru the pain to gain experience. You have to stumble,fall and roll to taste how liberating it is to get up with your head up.

It's always easy to ask a friend to move on but we all know it'll take time. The feeling of emptiness is unavoidable but as long as you've got friends who's willing to fill it in with love it's gonna be an easier feat.

To Grace, we'd always be here for you,hang in there..we got your back ;)

On Cheating Beaus&Relationships:

Hayh, how can we miss this out...be it cheating to the highest extent or casual flirting...IT"S STILL ANNOYING!!:D I wanted not to believe that man are polygamous by nature but over the years, i had doubts hehehe:D(peace hunnieh) Guys, whatever reasons or intentions you have in mind be it the slightest form of crush to that new officemate or just a breather from that week-long boyfriend/girlfriend tampuhans and badtrippans that's stressing you out it's still absolutely WRONG to cheat!!! You're just causing more trouble to the existing dilemma you have with your girls. And girls, don't give them reasons to look at the opposite side of the fence,sure,that side may look greener but assure your beaus that your side of the fence would always be tastier and healthier:D

I realize that this issue usually gets resolved thru constant,honest communication. It's normal to appreciate other creatures  but not to the extent that you'd do something to jeopardize the relationship you've built and nourished over the years.

As i always say, relationships lasts for as long as you both have the will to make it work. If you feel that you lost that will, try to find out why and re-asses yourself and the relationship. If that doesn't work and you feel the need to get out of the bond, DON'T use it as an excuse to cheat!!!! It's just so unfair! Don't be a coward and have the balls to tell your partner the truth,he/she deserves it.

Relationships are blessings, we have to take care of it, nurture it and feed it with love,faith and all sorts of beautiful experience and memories so it can grow and give birth to a splendid and blissful lifetime. 

I am lucky i found my match, Jhe is lucky she found her Ivan. It's a beautiful journey for us now and i hope for Grace too(soon).

On Life&Friendship:

Friendship has always been and will always be the most solid core of any sort of relationship. It's the biggest palette that gives color to the dull and plain canvass of our lives. As for these 2 lovely girlfriends of mine, i think they painted the brightest yellows and the prettiest pink on my canvass. I learn from the stories they share, i laugh my heart out with them, they fill my tummy with food and gas( from talking and laughing) enough to inflate a balloon :D They inspire me to be better: Grace looking very stunning after a bad break up/Jhe oh geez sister i dont even know how to start..the juggling of work and graduate school while keeping an eye on Ivan hahaha!:D joke!!:D i mean keeping Ivan happy and the relationship healthy,hands up sister!:D Thank you for sharing your life with me, it's overwhelming:) I love you girlies:) Let's work hard so we can travel alot ;D As for the boys, we can't thank you enough for being very supportive:D

Monthly Friendly Dates had never bee soooo exciting until last month:D

The Monthly Group :D

♥hun&i/"prettier than ever after the break-up"Grace/lovely couple Jhe&Ivan♥

&

thank you soo much designer sisterr Jhe for the pretty pretty 1 year supply of earringsÜ

they are LOVELY♥

'till our next date loves!♥ can't wait!Ü

dinner@home 08/08/11

'cos it's been a long time since we had fish for dinner,last night we had...

fish sarciado

& to complete the pinoy dinner feel, some eggplant ensalata with salted eggs :D

yummy!Ü

kitchen adventure

Made baked tahong (mussels) with the help of my lovely friend Andrea last friday and uhh..it turned out okay :D not what i expected thou. You see, problem is we don't have an oven so we have to make do of our resources and use a turbo broiler instead.I was kinda disappointed when the cheese started to burn on the sides instead of melt but oh well, light bulb moment..to make the cheese melt a slathered some butter on top and here it is. the end product..cheesy-garlicky baked tahong...

                                                        live,love,laugh..EAT♥

on our 8th year and 3rd month together

They say behind every successful man is a woman batting her eye lash and true enough i can't even remember how many times my eyes went thru exorcism stints just to show my dismay on annoying things you do, my disagreement in some decisions you make and sometimes just to prove a point or catch your attention. But hey i love you!:)

They also say the best way to a man's heart is thru his tummy and now, look at you-your size 30 pants no longer fits and yet that bulging tummy keeps growing everyday. I lost count on how many meals we've shared, how many calories we've gained(yeah i know,i'm the tangible testament to that), how much money we've spent over unhealthy yet irresistible junkfoods, how many cuts and burns i've had just to cook for you but hey, that's how much i love you.Ü

They say if you've been together 4 years and still unmarried, it's not worth the time. But look at us, still unmarried for more than 8 years in the eyes of man but we're more than married in heart,soul and mind in God's eyes. We're in love like that.

I don't know how many more here-says they have, some even said we're not gonna last but through and through, i know and i definitely believe that in the end there will and always be "US".

A repost from my tumblr on our 95th:
I can’t even remember when we’ve said our first hi’s and hello’s, the first time we held hands nor the first time we kissed- what i remember thou is that since he came; since he’d been a part of my ordinary life everything turned out to be extra ordinary. Yes, i might forget the many firsts  but what i remember clearly were the feelings that the first encounter, first touch and the first kiss had left me-i was in awe, i wasn’t expecting a stranger like him could change my life in a nick of time. The fights we had were no exception, i can’t believe that someone can care as much as he did; the amount of concern he offered was enough to make him mad if i screw things up and for that i loved him more. Sometimes it felt like he loved me more than i loved him but he kept telling me that the amount of love shouldn’t be measured. It’s not an issue of who loved more or who loved less it’s about loving and not expecting anything in return..that’s the noble him. He might not seem like the sweetest guy on earth, he’s not gonna bombard you with flowers and chocolates nor will he brag about the things he got for you but he will definitely sweep you off your feet with the trust and confidence he’ll give you, the amount of encouragement and inspiration he gives is just immeasurable. Over the years he has been my best friend, my critic, my number 1 fan at the same time my number 1 kontrabida. We have both learned to love the worst and the best in each other, to gain strength from one’s weakness and to turn a series of bad luck to a wonderful learning experience. Almost 8 years since i let him in my life and there’s not an inch of regret from that moment on. Sure we don’t have a perfect relationship-we have the ugliest fights that no one in the world could ever imagine; we hate each other at times; we throw sarcasm and bad attitudes once in awhile but we don’t give up on each other, and thats what makes our relationship real. We don’t pretend, we let our inhibitions out and we work it out. I couldn’t think of anybody else in the world who could compliment my crazy twisted ideas but him, no one could ever love the mean girl that lives inside me but him. 95 months of “togetherness”; 95 months of memories worth keeping most of all 95 months worth of priceless, immeasurable, untainted, real, unexplainable, incomparable and worth cherishing love, life and laughter.  And yes, i fall in love more each day!♥

On our 99th month together, i thank you even more,i love you even more and sometimes hate you even more :D I don't know what the future holds for us, i dont know how many more struggles we'd have to go thru but one thing's for certain, as long as i got you...we'd battle out those problems, give them a feat and bid them adieu Ü

Thank you for the 99 months of roller coaster ride of life side by side. It was bumby, edgy, exciting, crazy & lovely-definitely worth the ride even if i go thru it my whole lifetime. Cheers to an eternity of love so crazy yet feels so right.♥♥♥

I love you more than i hate you,hehe!Ü Happy 99th!♥